Ramada Hotel

posting/blogging at my hotel, early in the morning..yes as odd as it seems..i'm on a tour trip to alberta, banff, calgary, rockies... yepp, i've done it all. currently in banff tho. staying at "ramada" only hotel that has free internet.. well, out of the 3 hotels that i've stayed at..... crap, g2g jump on the busss now.. so that's all for now..

last day of school

wow. what a day. first i went to skool. and saw ashley sitting on the hill, i went up to her, she looked so tired and sick, i didn't feel well after. I asked about roxy, n when she can bring her over. n ... she tells me that she's gone. gone to the pound. i was in shock. i was so excited to get her. then. pound. she said she'd try to get her back. but seriously, what are the chances. like, even if she did. i'm not here. i dont even have 24 hrs left here. and getting the marks. wow. this term was crapp. i did so poorly.. tsk at myself. but well, if ur wondering. no i didn't fail. not even near. but still. so that didn't cheer me up. neither did courtney or lia, they didn't go to skool. well, at least i didn't see them. oh yea. wow. mark has a mohawk, n its green! now, i have a couple of hours to pack before i go to STC and DF 2nite. then after that.. less than 10 hrs later, i'm gone for the summer. i miss u every1! ='( <333

2 days...

yea. i can't think of a title. titles.. psh. lol. X) yea. so i'm blogging since i have nothing else to do. im in school, but no teachers are doing anything. so here i am on the computer doing whatever.. so. yea. during first class, i had tech. but i went to history with tatum. no here in tech. as i should have science.. i wonder how my day is going to go...
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yea. so from a regular day. to a disaster. so after. i went home, went to my cuzin's. then went with mom to the civic centre to drop off some bill thing. i went to the washroom. n left the cell phone in the stall. n when i came back for it. gone. Gone.GOne.GONe.GONE!!! *sigh* yea. so great day.. n now i talk to a million ppl b4 i go. just in case i can't catch them online later...

yearbooks

today.. i went to drama class, to watch a presentation. then i went off to the library, home, plaza, with ashes and brittany. then we bought CRISPERS!! (mhhhh) love 'em.. X) then back to school to see or get the yearbooks. i didn't get one, but signed plenty.. then i look through. (!!!!) i wasn't in it! at all. :'( how great.. hate this school now.. love u girls.. lol - sticking me in.. :D :D :D <333 thxx. what a day.. pretty dull.. then mom came to pick me up and all the stuff i had in my locker. *sigh* so little days while i'm still here. 3. i'm like.. already homesick, im going to miss every1 so much.
i dunno if im odd. but i really miss the little things.. the little things i like to do when im bored. my habits that i do. like when im bored, i look out the window starring at those trees i've seen for so long, see how much they've grown since last summer, seeing the birds fly, squirrels playing, chasing each other, the people playing basketball outside. i miss even sitting outside. being bored with my friends.. just these little things that i'll miss so much. i can't even begin to explain how i feel for the people i love, family, friends. everyone. love you all. <333 xoxoxo

Roxy~ my new puppy

yussss. i'm getting a puppy!! its a 3 month old cocker spaniel, girl, hyper, ... yea. aww. how i came 2 getting it.. ashley had a kitty. had .. 4? kittens n ran away with them a few months later. then got roxy. but now.. they dont want roxy. n i wanted a puppy. n amuzingly. when i asked dady.. he said YES!!!!!!!!!!!!!!:D :D :D :D :D but now.. i have a prob.. i'm going away for the summer. i need someone 2 look after it til i get back.. which is from june 23rd, til Aug 29th.. anyone??? plzzzzz..

last Sunday

wow.. i serious had a split second when i wanted to cry. i'm going away for the summer in 6 days. this was the last sunday that i'll be seeing them in like 2 months. Some people might not find this that bad.. but i really love and care for my friends a lot. i guess its from my .. past? yea. i had a very hurtful memories with friends. it still hurts when i think back. it all started around gr.6 or 7. i had a little group of friends that i would hang out with. And since i was still young, with extremely protective asian parents.. i wasn't allowed to go here and there with everyone else. I don't know if that's what started it, but i wasn't with every1 else as much. which would make me feel left out half the time when they talk about what they did the day or event that i wasn't there. But i just tried to wing it until like.. middle school and get new friends. And at the begining of going to middle school, gr7, a new girl joined the group, they had a lot of little gatherings, like go to her house, then her house.. i wasn't exactly told this, but when i was walking home with the, new girl was like. "why is she[crystal] here?" in the loudest whisper.. that hurt. and i found out that they were actually using me, since i had a lot of stuff. i was quite literally kicked out, the most hurtfully ways they use. I then met an asian girl, I was really close with her, but still not have fully recovered from before. And to make a very long story short, I gave in, was her best friend, til she met my old friends, started to treat my dryly, and basicly did the same, but when i asked her why, her answer was that i was showing off my stuff. but seriously, i get it from friends, or family friends or i buy it myself, i don’t buy it to show off, but because I like it too.
And its just different at church, people, respect every1, so that’s basicly why i’m so grateful of my friends at church. Love you guys so much.. whether i just met you, or known you my whole life.
But anyway.. I had funn, other than the fact that I couldn’t find any1 half the time. it was funn hanging with wesley, happy __th wess!
Really wanted to go to the softball prac today, but, I have to do my room.. funn..

Still have to plann how im going to chill with every1 in time b4 I leave… im still planning...

MO-jam

yay.. what a day, memories. drama. watched the presentaions. n math. lol. sooo jks. alyssa! u n ur deoderant! seriously. find a better time.. lol. X) n my cookies n class. i have a feeling that ms.yang say me.. =P oh well, she didn't say anything about it.. english. EMbarassing.. i fully didn't have my arguments for the ennglish debate. THX SANDRA&&MARIAH!!! life savers.. <333>< lia, u damn teaser! h8 u. u lucky bastard.. :P jks.. n courtney, -- so cute. lia -- hottt. LOL. n me. .. --- .. nvm. after i was done the frech exam. *sigh* *dreamy* moments.. with the hat.. =))))))) anyway. i'll lay off my detail.. 2 juiccy 4 u! lol :)) anyway. we went to mowat's MO-jam - saw himm.. ;))) lol.. n the sumo wresling was hilarious. n the slide, courtney, u really should have gone. it was awesome. really. n then watched the bands play. n thx lyssa 4 the henna! luv it! ;)))) yeppp.. my day. with a juiccy part all 2 myself.. *sigh* lol

What a day! next to nothing happened.. -__- first i had tech. i had a test. seriously tho.. it was hard. hard reading n understanding the question itself. then i had science, i presented my projecton Aries.. my sign! yes anyway. i did pretty good. then lunch.. it was boring.. then gym.. i got evaluated in soccer, n we played a game. Then geo. anyother presentation.. what a great day.. if u can have anymore test or pres...
after skool.. fully got jumped by ashes.. n home. msn. apparently connor starts talking 2 me.. barely know him.. but i dont mind! :D lol u must b jealous courtney.. lol. jks.
Change in katelyn's bday party.. to fri. great. then i miss even more. going 4 like 3 hrs...

8 days left...

Today was pretty plain. other than going to the doctors for my check up. i was soo scared, i don't like getting blood test. n lucky me.. i didn't have to! :D.. yepp.. n some ppl r pissing me off a bit.. i'll live..4 now.

So buzy these days.. so many projects.. tho there’s only .. like 8 days of skool left. -___-

well, this Friday, im going to katelyn’s birthday party! :D awesome. watergun fight. I’m so dead. n I already know it. X) yea. Then I go home. Then bus 2 DF… wonder what we’re doing..

' [anon]

I can see when you look at me.
But when I look at you,
u look away.
makes me confused.
You said you liked me,
but when I start liking you…
u avoid me.
u confuse me hunn.
confuse me lots.

' family peace

Wouldn’t I just want 2 live in peace.
There is no peace.
For once I’d like to walk into my home.
n not b scared
not b worried that there would b an argument.
how much I’d love 2 see the family smile.
Together.
that our hearts won’t criticize.
that we could be able to communicate
calmly.
sensibly.
never had a nice conversation ending calmly.
but instead wildly.
so much I’d like it to be peaceful.

[arguing a lot lately...*sigh*]

' acceptance

[if you want to know. i do poetry.. this is one.]

All i wanted was to be accepted,
accepted for who i am.
not for who i'm not.
accepted anytime.
not just when you're bored,
using me to pass the time,
i want to know.
why.
why am i not being accepted
is there something wrong with me?
what is it?..
accept me.

12 days 2 go..

its june 12th, 2oo6. exactly 12 days til i go 2 hk. man m i going 2 miss everything here back home.. n i can't even relax. renavating. i have to help because im part of the family. Well, obviously no one cares that i need sleep. i have projects, test n hw.. n of course renavating. i was planning/hopeing that i would b able 2 go out with my friends a few days b4 i go. where m i suppose 2 find time 2 do that now? *sigh*

renavating. since April 18th, 2oo6. now june 12th. still renavating. well at least the house looks better now... broke down a wall, painted the whole ground floor n most of 2nd floor. im switching rooms with my dad's book room since its bigger n i have a lot of stuff. so much 2 do. so very little time.