i know, im here, so please --

i know when somethings wrong,
i know you better than that..
i know you dont want me to worry.

im here for you; you know that.
im here, its my responsiblility.
im here to share your problems,
im here to listen.
im here cause i love you.

so please dont keep it from me;
so please dont feel bad for making me worry.
so please - talk to me.

i know. im here. so please --

midnight outbreak

my mother.
closely involved in [volume one] and [two] of cause of my stress and insanity.

what exactly did i do?
n o t h i n g.
not a word. not a movement.
and thats all is needed to start it all//

this is what i have done to her. what i am that is a problem.
- i was born.
- im a horrible student.
- i care of nothing.
- i keep her in canada.
- i was born.

so she threatens to leave.
leave canda.
leave the family.
leave me behind.
to hongkong
to my sick aunt
to not-where-i-am.

arent i a curse .

blamed for.
not to say a word in response is difficult.

yet dont say a word. dont make a face.
it declares war.
all exclusive -war cries. -flightless objects flying. aimed at me. to kill me.

--so here i am.
holding my tongue.
with music flowing through the buds into my head, in attempts to clear my mind.



. . . . . . . . . . . all just a little midnight outbreak//