[1Cor13:7-8]

love bears all things,

endures all things,

love never ends.
[1Cor13:7-8]

i need someone to love me when i deserve it the least.

hear me.

words i say ring no echo
the motion of these lips
create nothing worth the attention of the ears
nothing i say means enough
for you to bring back to your heart
but just tossed out over the shoulder
like the junk mail in your mailbox.

crying out for someone to hear me
so perhaps i would feel less lonely
in hopes that id be told and shown
that im worth just a little something.

the day still awaits.

watching

whoever knew that time could be this painful. this hard to bear.

ive been
watching the time, until you get home. its getting late.
watching outside, for the weather youre in. is it getting cold?
watching this conversation, that youve walked away from. and i miss you.

this feeling in my chest. wont go away. not knowing if youre ok.
please come home. and make things right again.
i cant make it without you.

i see the evening rays of golden shades of orange.
wherever you are. im sure youre watching it too
the sight of this majestic scene
breaks my heart watching this as we're apart
you wont be home soon, i know youd stay til the show ends.

until then ill wait. .....................................................watching.

whereareyou

if screaming your name as loud as i can
you'd appear.

id do it.

i dont see you.

please come home

even if i were to travel the seven seas,
i would still fail to find someone sweeter than you.

my heart trembles every moment it cant feel yours.
the sun doesnt seem to shine as bright.

wish i could take back the things ive said
acting on my emotions never seems to take me far --
in the r i g h t d i r e c t i o n .

at the end of the day.
nothing changes about how i feel bout you.
i still love you the same.

when you going to go home babe?

i m i s s y o u .

til the sun shines again, it'll rain

i look around me, at the beauty God created.
the trees. the flowers. the squirrels the robins.
the vibrant colours they shine,
sharp chips and songs - rejoicing in the sun.
its another beautiful day. that i have to spend without you.

the world turns to shades of gray
as this thundering cloud seems to stay
hovering over my head,
refusing to go on its way.

this cloud doesnt seem to be lightening..
endless raining cloud still rains on me.
the cold blankets my shoulders
shivers down my spine..

until the day we can be together
this cloud will keep rain on me.
until we are together
can i gain comfort and see the sun's rays
until we are together.

shatter me. you have

the shatter of object as it crashes to the ground from the force that brought it down.
the satisfaction it brings in the second of the brokenness.
like it represented me.
shattering across the floor, pieces flying off to places never to be found again.
the flaw concludes to time.
shattering feeling i feel lasted so much longer --
pieces picked up and thrown onto the floor,
shards of me broken to dust.

blow them away and hide this mess of me.

i dont know

"i dont know"
are simply words of uncertainty
the number of things and decisions
id answer with
i dont know.

whats going to happen in the future
where am i going, where am i going to be
can i get there.
what am i suppose to do
how do i fix what i already did..
i simply. do not. know.

so many things i dont know
but one i do.
i love you.
and theres no room for uncertainty
in those three words i offer to you --with ribbon and bows

entrance in which you came, hangs an exit sign.

with every entrance you enter;
the entrance in which you came,
hangs an exit sign.

into my life you've entered
into my heart you've entered
you unpacked your belongings and you chose to stay;
here within this difficult heart you chose to stay.

with every argument that rises,
accompanying every tear that falls,
you look to the door...

the entrance in which you came,
hangs an exit sign.
in its eye catching red glow -it calls.

i cant stop pain and hurt in the air, believe me -ive tried; even with frebreeze ive sprayed.
and i cant remove that exit sign that calls, believe me -ive tried with scissors and hammers.

the entrance in which you came,
still hangs an exit sign.
in its eye catching red glow -it still calls.

rain rain

rain. rain.
oh please dont go away..
stay awhile and join me
you match my mood of shades of grey,
with drips and drops like tears falling from the sky

is there something wrong?
the point of execution cannot be identified
but offered an unhelpful fray of subjects to yet to be denied

shower me with your wet tears of gloom

yet another moment

tears fill the lip of my eyes
like tsunamis rushing over the coastlines
eyes wide open,
holding back that flush of tears
how much longer can you hold--

wish i knew what to say to when things get quiet
rather than only adding to the silence
with a silent scream i shout
the thoughts and emotions
that comes with no words to express

what can i do. what can i say.
to fix what i already did.
to fix what i already said.
how thoughtless i am,
no thought put to how you would respond.
until when you do respond.
is when i start to regret.

i cant hold these waves 'longer
in a blink they rush in
destroying all thats within reach.

im ready for the rainbow - and its given

clouds grow grey and heavy
as it slowly drift across the skies above me
letting tears fall to the earth around me
restricting the sun's warming bright rays to pass; to shine on me

soon those clouds will lighten
to fluffy clouds
to higher skies they'll float

i can now see God's promise;
a rainbow hung in the sky,
promising me sun shine after the storm;
happiness will follow the sad
the sun's warming comforting rays shine on me
spring to life with colours around me
God's watching above me

white-out

theres white-out on my heart
cant possibly be a good thing
youve ignored the things youve graved 'nto my heart;
youve whited them out.
promises scrawled in with ink
arent permanent.
as theres white-out upon my heart.

wish upon a star or love

wish i had the answers to your questions that you ask in your mind and heart
but i dont seem to have a clue what to say anymore -
what i use to say, only use to work.
you depend on me alone to change your life for the better,
but there's nothing i accomplished to show any better..

i wish i was stronger to hold you up when you fall
yet only do i stumble after you - falling harder than your own fall.
where i am, on the floor, i spot a dark cave to the side,
and with failure written covering my face,
the temptation to crawl over grows to large proportions that are hard to deny.

the question rings in my mind like a deafening bell.
if im the right one for you if i cant succeed in what i thought was only the basis..