distract me from myself.

i miss working.. or just going out with people. anyone for any reason - even if its just to school studying.

i have to force myself to be happy, appear happy cause i have to be for work; leave all your own moods behind when youre at work. when im out with friends, i dont want others to worry over me, or turn the mood blue just cause i am. so i pretend to be happy, dont get me wrong, i am happy being with everyone, i just dont let other things ruin my mood.

its like within the time im pretending that im happy, i convince myself that i am.

being alone is good, but not for too long. its like i get sucked into this downward spiral that i make for myself.. my own mind is a dangerous place for me to explore alone..

take me out - distract me from myself..

faith.hope.courage.patience. love.

faith.
on this relationship to work out as God has intended to.
that we will be granted with wisdom to solve this heartbreak.

hope.
to at least make it out together as friends.
that you wont hate me.

courage.
to hear all the hate from you and to not react negatively.
to talk things out and not just sweep it under the carpet.

patience.
knowing that we're both hurt and broken.
to not rush a conclusion

love.