wishful heart?

i have a perseverant heart. and i kinda hate it. i dont like this inner force that makes me pessimistic but at the same time, still very optimistic. the feeling or thinking that, if i try hard enough, if i put all my heart into it -it would work out.

i should of learned that life isnt like that. but my heart refuses to learn the lesson. i wish i could give up on love sometimes. it really hurts down deep. just give up til i know i wont let myself get hurt.

but whats all this, wishful thinking. and that my friend. gets me no where.

wish

maybe you were right.. the whole thing about wishing..

i might be a bit naive, or just too hopeful for my own good..

i dont believe that wishing gets me anywhere; like i dont actually believe that wishing on 11:11, on shooting stars and all those things will grant me what i want, or just wishing.. but a part of me still wants to believe that maybe it will, and that theres no harm in wishing anyway..

but lately, i really dont even bother; whenever i wish anything, i’d think about what it is that i want, and from there it just grows, usually ends up growing into self caused heartbreaking disappointment.

gotta love how i do these things to myself… x_X

“Every song has a memory. Every song has the ability to make or break your heart.”