final x-country run

started the day off early.. for me its too early.. 6:00am.. then i had to make lunch.. and get ready. supposedly i was going to walk to school.. but seriously... it was PITCH dark out there.. [i'm STILL afraid of the dark xP] so i made dad give me a drive. at school, i was suppose to meet sally there so we can go together to hand in our lab reports that were due that day.. within 5 minutes. i fell asleep at my locker.. but woke up moments later. so we delivered our papers...
right when we got back, it was already time to load the bus!! * nervous nervous* the bus was so colddd.. i curled up into a ball.. as i always do when i'm cold.. for the whole ride nearly.. my legs fell asleep *oh joy* i hate that feeling. uhg. we arrived at victoria park collegiate to pick people up. so poor, we have to share buses. -_- but yea. we showed up at etobicoke olympium [spelt wrong...] i hate that place.. ski lift hill.. *whinee* its so steep!
but we fortunately didn't have to run yet, so we put our tent up. sshelter =) it was quite cozy when everyone got in.. sally brought mini crisps! yummsies.. =))) then.. at 11:30am it was our turn to racee. ><
it was so colddd.. and i hated and sucked if i started in a back row. and i did. -_- lucky mee.. it took me a while to get back further front, but never really made it.. and not like i would/can push my way forward. it sucked.. i couldn’t run properly.. then, lucky mee it started to rain.. it was freezing! rain+wind+cold+shorts not exactly the greatest combo.. and i guess i did pretty well until i came to the hill.. it was so steep, i wasted so much energy going half way up the hill, but really, running it, really didn’t bring me up any faster, but just used more energy… that’s prob where i went wrong… so i went on, and on.. first my cramps.. then my collar bone area hurt.. the muscles there… maybe it was because i got rammed over by this gr.12 the other day.. hitting my there.. hm…so a the end, the last .. 4oo m (???) I caught up around 7-9 people. =DDD happy happy happy.. then my coach was like.. give it you awesome end crystal!! Hm.. it hurt.. but it would mean catching up 2 more people.. so I did. it hurt so much.. *ouchiesss* but.. that brought me a place of 79.. definitely not one of my high scores.. but i guess its ok.. sally came in 93? or.. 90 someeething..
then we curled back into our tent and watched the others play cheat. Then we got changed and.. sleep session! *sigh xDDD* curled up in those.. camp..folding chairs.. we fell asleep for a bit.. quite a long bit. =) then we got up and got pizzaaa and hot chocolateee.. =))) yummmsies&& warmmm. then.. back to the tent to.. hide from the evil and unwelcoming weather outside. and there we stayed.. most of the day.. then, at… 5 (???) we packed our tents up and waited for the bus, that never really came… so we played catch, and… tackle catch.. it was so funn.. =DDD never hold the ball for long… is what i learned.. xP then.. at around 6:15, the bussy finally came.. and we got back to our dear school at around… 6:45… WALKED home.. it was so dark outside! I was so scared… and by the time I got home.. it was 7…
that was how my last x-country meet went.. =)

Katelyn, this is for you.

katelyn.. though you may never read this..but still.. i want to write.. it’s on my mind..

katelyn, i don’t want to loose another friend, i lost a lot of close relationships every since i left for the summer..
i can’t believe that you took brittany seriously.. “when you’re depressed, cut and smoke weed!” << DON’T! that’s a reason why i drifted from the others, that’s what they all decided to do kate. i know that we aren’t as close as we use to be, but really, you can tell me what’s happening in life.. i’ll be there for you to talk to.. any time, anywhere. i don’t like to see the blood that’s in you, on your wrists. you always told me to do things that i’d regret later, whatever it is, don’t hurt yourself, is what you’d always told me, i never did, then here i am, doing the same for you. i know life can be hard sometimes, you know what i’ve gone through, well some of it, now, it’s your turn to talk to me about it. srry that i was so hard to get a reach of over the summer.. heard that a lot happened to you. tell me about it. i want to hear. i want to help. it hurts for me too, to see my friend, sad, and kills to see you cut. i only worry because i care. i’ll do what I can to help. now do your part, and talk to me.

no answer..

Its funny how i randomly thought of this.. and agreed and when i tried to think for myself, i was lost and had no answer.. – [everyone’s good or skilled at something.] yes, agreed, so i thought, what’s mine? So that’s where I had no answer, no idea.. and left with it... everything that i’m ‘good at’, i know someone that is many times better.

yea.. anyway.. back to my hw.. ><

another x-country meet

wow. what a dayy.. started at 7:30.. when it was suppose to start at 6:30... lost an hour to get ready and EAT perhaps? yea.. didn't have time to eat before i leave for a day at sunnybrook park for cross country.. so i starve and make dad drive me to school.. when i got there.. i had just enough time to put some stuff in my locker.. and split.. lucky us this time... we have to share a school bus with pearson... as of last time.. coach buss.. ALL TO OURSELVES.. it was so awesome.. it was FREEZING this time... we had a puny tent and 2 tarps.. the big one was to block the wind.. that eventually ripped. >< the tent. the tent fit around 5 ppl max as the whole tent will already b very crowded.. ran at 11:30.. it was so cold. i couldn't feel my legs the second i took off my pants.. the whole run.. i couldn't feel my legs.. but my feet hurt like crazy.. i started off great until i got a head ache from the wind.. that somehow messed my hearing.. then i slowed down.. and down.. and down.. at last i came in 24th out of who-knows-how-many-ppl. i made it to the finalllsssss! =DDD but i don't really want to go.. = / and while the gr11 guys were running.. me and sally take over the tent.. =) what... it was HAILING.. and in the tent.. we decided.. to warm ourselves up.. by wearing whatever that was there... you may find it weird.. but if you were there. you would of done the same. so i took later on known.. marty's sweater.. man.. it was HUGE.. it went down to my knees and the hood covered my entire face.. sleeves 2-3 inches longer than my arm... but hey.. it was warmm.. =) so i looked like a freak running around with a huge sweater.. =) after we stood there for the announcements and stuff... and i continue on to the next meet.. on friday. nxt friday. whipeee.. NOT. =)

rain is all i see

well, what a day... starts off dark.. so dark that i think its still night as i get up for school. so exausted.. and i have no food at home for lunch.. dropped 2 pounds just like that.. -___- now i'm even more underweight. *sigh* so i walk to school. only drizzling.. as livy says.. spitting.. half way there and it POURS.. i'm soaked.. pants are stuck to my leg.. jacket didn't cover my behind.. so my butts wet... n i'll have to sit on it the whole day. JOY. and i have no energy in class.. doseing off.. looking out the window.. raining.. grey outside.. makes you feel so trapped.. like i'm not trapped enough.. then it makes me think of all my other problems in life.. lunch.. as i starve.. i have to go to a cross country meeting.. a run on friday. note. its raining that day. don't i look forward to that.. its a long run too. after school.. drizzling all the way home.
homework homework homework. what an awesome day.
this is building up... not good... *sigh*