wow.. i serious had a split second when i wanted to cry. i'm going away for the summer in 6 days. this was the last sunday that i'll be seeing them in like 2 months. Some people might not find this that bad.. but i really love and care for my friends a lot. i guess its from my .. past? yea. i had a very hurtful memories with friends. it still hurts when i think back. it all started around gr.6 or 7. i had a little group of friends that i would hang out with. And since i was still young, with extremely protective asian parents.. i wasn't allowed to go here and there with everyone else. I don't know if that's what started it, but i wasn't with every1 else as much. which would make me feel left out half the time when they talk about what they did the day or event that i wasn't there. But i just tried to wing it until like.. middle school and get new friends. And at the begining of going to middle school, gr7, a new girl joined the group, they had a lot of little gatherings, like go to her house, then her house.. i wasn't exactly told this, but when i was walking home with the, new girl was like. "why is she[crystal] here?" in the loudest whisper.. that hurt. and i found out that they were actually using me, since i had a lot of stuff. i was quite literally kicked out, the most hurtfully ways they use. I then met an asian girl, I was really close with her, but still not have fully recovered from before. And to make a very long story short, I gave in, was her best friend, til she met my old friends, started to treat my dryly, and basicly did the same, but when i asked her why, her answer was that i was showing off my stuff. but seriously, i get it from friends, or family friends or i buy it myself, i don’t buy it to show off, but because I like it too.
And its just different at church, people, respect every1, so that’s basicly why i’m so grateful of my friends at church. Love you guys so much.. whether i just met you, or known you my whole life.
But anyway.. I had funn, other than the fact that I couldn’t find any1 half the time. it was funn hanging with wesley, happy __th wess!
Really wanted to go to the softball prac today, but, I have to do my room.. funn..
Still have to plann how im going to chill with every1 in time b4 I leave… im still planning...
you only live life once, so make the best of it.
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that would be 16th! =D
glad to hear you were able to find a group people that you can trust now. sorry to hear about your past experiences, and its tough to have those experiences in the past, but you know, i see you've begun moving on from the past, so thats always a positive sign. hope you have a wonderful trip! and make sure you have a good time!
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