started the day off early.. for me its too early.. 6:00am.. then i had to make lunch.. and get ready. supposedly i was going to walk to school.. but seriously... it was PITCH dark out there.. [i'm STILL afraid of the dark xP] so i made dad give me a drive. at school, i was suppose to meet sally there so we can go together to hand in our lab reports that were due that day.. within 5 minutes. i fell asleep at my locker.. but woke up moments later. so we delivered our papers...
right when we got back, it was already time to load the bus!! * nervous nervous* the bus was so colddd.. i curled up into a ball.. as i always do when i'm cold.. for the whole ride nearly.. my legs fell asleep *oh joy* i hate that feeling. uhg. we arrived at victoria park collegiate to pick people up. so poor, we have to share buses. -_- but yea. we showed up at etobicoke olympium [spelt wrong...] i hate that place.. ski lift hill.. *whinee* its so steep!
but we fortunately didn't have to run yet, so we put our tent up. sshelter =) it was quite cozy when everyone got in.. sally brought mini crisps! yummsies.. =))) then.. at 11:30am it was our turn to racee. ><
it was so colddd.. and i hated and sucked if i started in a back row. and i did. -_- lucky mee.. it took me a while to get back further front, but never really made it.. and not like i would/can push my way forward. it sucked.. i couldn’t run properly.. then, lucky mee it started to rain.. it was freezing! rain+wind+cold+shorts not exactly the greatest combo.. and i guess i did pretty well until i came to the hill.. it was so steep, i wasted so much energy going half way up the hill, but really, running it, really didn’t bring me up any faster, but just used more energy… that’s prob where i went wrong… so i went on, and on.. first my cramps.. then my collar bone area hurt.. the muscles there… maybe it was because i got rammed over by this gr.12 the other day.. hitting my there.. hm…so a the end, the last .. 4oo m (???) I caught up around 7-9 people. =DDD happy happy happy.. then my coach was like.. give it you awesome end crystal!! Hm.. it hurt.. but it would mean catching up 2 more people.. so I did. it hurt so much.. *ouchiesss* but.. that brought me a place of 79.. definitely not one of my high scores.. but i guess its ok.. sally came in 93? or.. 90 someeething..
then we curled back into our tent and watched the others play cheat. Then we got changed and.. sleep session! *sigh xDDD* curled up in those.. camp..folding chairs.. we fell asleep for a bit.. quite a long bit. =) then we got up and got pizzaaa and hot chocolateee.. =))) yummmsies&& warmmm. then.. back to the tent to.. hide from the evil and unwelcoming weather outside. and there we stayed.. most of the day.. then, at… 5 (???) we packed our tents up and waited for the bus, that never really came… so we played catch, and… tackle catch.. it was so funn.. =DDD never hold the ball for long… is what i learned.. xP then.. at around 6:15, the bussy finally came.. and we got back to our dear school at around… 6:45… WALKED home.. it was so dark outside! I was so scared… and by the time I got home.. it was 7…
that was how my last x-country meet went.. =)
Wednesday, October 25, 2006
Wednesday, October 18, 2006
Katelyn, this is for you.
katelyn.. though you may never read this..but still.. i want to write.. it’s on my mind..
katelyn, i don’t want to loose another friend, i lost a lot of close relationships every since i left for the summer..
i can’t believe that you took brittany seriously.. “when you’re depressed, cut and smoke weed!” << DON’T! that’s a reason why i drifted from the others, that’s what they all decided to do kate. i know that we aren’t as close as we use to be, but really, you can tell me what’s happening in life.. i’ll be there for you to talk to.. any time, anywhere. i don’t like to see the blood that’s in you, on your wrists. you always told me to do things that i’d regret later, whatever it is, don’t hurt yourself, is what you’d always told me, i never did, then here i am, doing the same for you. i know life can be hard sometimes, you know what i’ve gone through, well some of it, now, it’s your turn to talk to me about it. srry that i was so hard to get a reach of over the summer.. heard that a lot happened to you. tell me about it. i want to hear. i want to help. it hurts for me too, to see my friend, sad, and kills to see you cut. i only worry because i care. i’ll do what I can to help. now do your part, and talk to me.
katelyn, i don’t want to loose another friend, i lost a lot of close relationships every since i left for the summer..
i can’t believe that you took brittany seriously.. “when you’re depressed, cut and smoke weed!” << DON’T! that’s a reason why i drifted from the others, that’s what they all decided to do kate. i know that we aren’t as close as we use to be, but really, you can tell me what’s happening in life.. i’ll be there for you to talk to.. any time, anywhere. i don’t like to see the blood that’s in you, on your wrists. you always told me to do things that i’d regret later, whatever it is, don’t hurt yourself, is what you’d always told me, i never did, then here i am, doing the same for you. i know life can be hard sometimes, you know what i’ve gone through, well some of it, now, it’s your turn to talk to me about it. srry that i was so hard to get a reach of over the summer.. heard that a lot happened to you. tell me about it. i want to hear. i want to help. it hurts for me too, to see my friend, sad, and kills to see you cut. i only worry because i care. i’ll do what I can to help. now do your part, and talk to me.
Sunday, October 15, 2006
no answer..
Its funny how i randomly thought of this.. and agreed and when i tried to think for myself, i was lost and had no answer.. – [everyone’s good or skilled at something.] yes, agreed, so i thought, what’s mine? So that’s where I had no answer, no idea.. and left with it... everything that i’m ‘good at’, i know someone that is many times better.
yea.. anyway.. back to my hw.. ><
yea.. anyway.. back to my hw.. ><
Friday, October 13, 2006
another x-country meet
wow. what a dayy.. started at 7:30.. when it was suppose to start at 6:30... lost an hour to get ready and EAT perhaps? yea.. didn't have time to eat before i leave for a day at sunnybrook park for cross country.. so i starve and make dad drive me to school.. when i got there.. i had just enough time to put some stuff in my locker.. and split.. lucky us this time... we have to share a school bus with pearson... as of last time.. coach buss.. ALL TO OURSELVES.. it was so awesome.. it was FREEZING this time... we had a puny tent and 2 tarps.. the big one was to block the wind.. that eventually ripped. >< the tent. the tent fit around 5 ppl max as the whole tent will already b very crowded.. ran at 11:30.. it was so cold. i couldn't feel my legs the second i took off my pants.. the whole run.. i couldn't feel my legs.. but my feet hurt like crazy.. i started off great until i got a head ache from the wind.. that somehow messed my hearing.. then i slowed down.. and down.. and down.. at last i came in 24th out of who-knows-how-many-ppl. i made it to the finalllsssss! =DDD but i don't really want to go.. = / and while the gr11 guys were running.. me and sally take over the tent.. =) what... it was HAILING.. and in the tent.. we decided.. to warm ourselves up.. by wearing whatever that was there... you may find it weird.. but if you were there. you would of done the same. so i took later on known.. marty's sweater.. man.. it was HUGE.. it went down to my knees and the hood covered my entire face.. sleeves 2-3 inches longer than my arm... but hey.. it was warmm.. =) so i looked like a freak running around with a huge sweater.. =) after we stood there for the announcements and stuff... and i continue on to the next meet.. on friday. nxt friday. whipeee.. NOT. =)
Wednesday, October 11, 2006
rain is all i see
well, what a day... starts off dark.. so dark that i think its still night as i get up for school. so exausted.. and i have no food at home for lunch.. dropped 2 pounds just like that.. -___- now i'm even more underweight. *sigh* so i walk to school. only drizzling.. as livy says.. spitting.. half way there and it POURS.. i'm soaked.. pants are stuck to my leg.. jacket didn't cover my behind.. so my butts wet... n i'll have to sit on it the whole day. JOY. and i have no energy in class.. doseing off.. looking out the window.. raining.. grey outside.. makes you feel so trapped.. like i'm not trapped enough.. then it makes me think of all my other problems in life.. lunch.. as i starve.. i have to go to a cross country meeting.. a run on friday. note. its raining that day. don't i look forward to that.. its a long run too. after school.. drizzling all the way home.
homework homework homework. what an awesome day.
this is building up... not good... *sigh*
homework homework homework. what an awesome day.
this is building up... not good... *sigh*
Monday, October 09, 2006
Lumas get-together
Sun, October 8, 2oo6
Lumas get-together!
Haven’t had quite as much fin in a while.. though i didn’t do anything extremely special so thanksgiving sunday… first day in inner court!! ‘new chapter to etcbc’…
So different.. but pretty cool.. C= after there was a lot food in the upper room.. celebration of the opening of the inner room im guessing? – the mini cake was gooood. ^^
Then sunday school class, TD .. timouthy and Daniel.. still find that weird.. the class wasn’t the greatest but it was easy… lol.. JT’s babysitting/day care.. xDDD
Then I had a heart to heart(???) convo with jenn.. then mary.. naw… more like.. breaking down and screwing my self over.. -___- then at 2pm..
Lumas’ get-together! – found dad.. “plz! plz! plz! me goo? 0=)” n YUSSS i was free.. =DDD
So then agnes, mich, and i went to michelle’s place.. to eat.. to steal songs.. to leave pics.. and FINALLY, late before we even left the house – late. -____- when we’re out on the highway.. traffic.. =((( finally, eventually we make it to albert’s.. the moment we got in the house.. the number of shoes!! quite a lot of shoes.. we chilled and slowed down before we went downstairs.. then we watched austin powers and learned how to play MJ! yayyy.. =)) thx andrew! [and nice to meet u.. =)] but yea.. i still suck at it..but at least I get how to play.. then we watched the Lumas video.. lol.. wess and his blue sweat.. poster boy! xD jks…
then we played family fued.. i suck at that 2.. =/ …
then.. FOOD! Wow.. a lot of food.. 6 trays of delectable chinese food + a plate of sushi.. lots was left over.. i think it was 3 full trays left over? .. after we played a bit more MJ.. well, i wasn’t playing.. but watching/learning off wess n matt.. so hard to learn when they go so fast.. but i got a bit.. =) n matt.. and his gass prob.. but then again.. he felt sick.. [feel better soon matt! =)))] then we finished our incomplete game of family fued.. go fantastic five!! so jks..
after we watched the lumas video again, followed by the baseball game and the football game…
slowly people left. D= then forget how it started. but we ~ michelle aka fishy, willio aka willius(?), wess and moi.. had a pillow/air baseball bat fight.. i stuck around a bit, but wess split pretty soon… fishy and willius are VICIOUS! xP.. it stopped when mich had to go.. =( then i was the only girl left.. so I slept/watched the game on the couch til jordan’s mum came to give us a lift home.. by the time her mum came it was – 11:30? and got home at 11:45…
didn’t seem that special but it was.. haven’t spent time with a lot of people in a long time.. it was great.
~ miss those I see weekly and even more to those I don’t see even less often..
luv u all!
Lumas get-together!
Haven’t had quite as much fin in a while.. though i didn’t do anything extremely special so thanksgiving sunday… first day in inner court!! ‘new chapter to etcbc’…
So different.. but pretty cool.. C= after there was a lot food in the upper room.. celebration of the opening of the inner room im guessing? – the mini cake was gooood. ^^
Then sunday school class, TD .. timouthy and Daniel.. still find that weird.. the class wasn’t the greatest but it was easy… lol.. JT’s babysitting/day care.. xDDD
Then I had a heart to heart(???) convo with jenn.. then mary.. naw… more like.. breaking down and screwing my self over.. -___- then at 2pm..
Lumas’ get-together! – found dad.. “plz! plz! plz! me goo? 0=)” n YUSSS i was free.. =DDD
So then agnes, mich, and i went to michelle’s place.. to eat.. to steal songs.. to leave pics.. and FINALLY, late before we even left the house – late. -____- when we’re out on the highway.. traffic.. =((( finally, eventually we make it to albert’s.. the moment we got in the house.. the number of shoes!! quite a lot of shoes.. we chilled and slowed down before we went downstairs.. then we watched austin powers and learned how to play MJ! yayyy.. =)) thx andrew! [and nice to meet u.. =)] but yea.. i still suck at it..but at least I get how to play.. then we watched the Lumas video.. lol.. wess and his blue sweat.. poster boy! xD jks…
then we played family fued.. i suck at that 2.. =/ …
then.. FOOD! Wow.. a lot of food.. 6 trays of delectable chinese food + a plate of sushi.. lots was left over.. i think it was 3 full trays left over? .. after we played a bit more MJ.. well, i wasn’t playing.. but watching/learning off wess n matt.. so hard to learn when they go so fast.. but i got a bit.. =) n matt.. and his gass prob.. but then again.. he felt sick.. [feel better soon matt! =)))] then we finished our incomplete game of family fued.. go fantastic five!! so jks..
after we watched the lumas video again, followed by the baseball game and the football game…
slowly people left. D= then forget how it started. but we ~ michelle aka fishy, willio aka willius(?), wess and moi.. had a pillow/air baseball bat fight.. i stuck around a bit, but wess split pretty soon… fishy and willius are VICIOUS! xP.. it stopped when mich had to go.. =( then i was the only girl left.. so I slept/watched the game on the couch til jordan’s mum came to give us a lift home.. by the time her mum came it was – 11:30? and got home at 11:45…
didn’t seem that special but it was.. haven’t spent time with a lot of people in a long time.. it was great.
~ miss those I see weekly and even more to those I don’t see even less often..
luv u all!
Oracles Feast
Sat, October 7, 2oo6
oracles dinner.. or FEAST! wow.. what a day..
instead of going to the hell - inspired STS, i bussed myself to church at 10 in the morning to help put with the church inner court clean up.. starting my weekend off early! dropped by at timmy's to get a bagel for breakfast.. then i browsed through the bible store next door from our church.. then i finally reached destination -- church. xD
so there i was.. moving tables.. chairs.. dusting.. with Katie and Ankie, later Agnes too. then we just sat in the inner court reserving seats and just listening to the singers sing. as i was weird enough to attempt doing my homework.. xD
lunch, we were didn’t need to provide lunch? hmm.. didn’t know that. well, then again, neither did Katie.. asking Edwin to bring her a lunch.. so Edwin brings this huge lunch.. n we all .. me, ankie, agnes, and katie all take some.. still we had leftovers.. -____-
later we started cooking dinner.. turkey.. well not really, the girls didn’t really help.. at the end it was just the guys.. xD so the ones that weren’t cooking.. we just hung out.. mich, agnes, and i went and took .. too many pics with sam’s new laptop. so random.. then we played xbox.. i sucked so much.. and throughout the whole time, i walked around with warren’s mini disk player..
then eventually we got to eattt.. yummy.. but i must say.. the stuffing wasn’t my fave.. but it was all cool. and wow.. must be hard cooking for like… 20 people.
after dinner we played uno.. reteat style.. man do i ever embarrass myself! i cut in… changing colour.. bluuuuue! .. not when i was suppose to go.. man.. was it ever sad. xP while we were playing was when we gave darren his pressie, a huge poster with a group pic of the oracles made with a million little pics of pics that were taken during games and practices..so purty.. ^^.. then we had dessert..
mango cake!!! from matt’s dad.. *yumm* ^^ so good. and there was ice cream and apple pie.. sugaaahh.. =DDD
after.. finishing up the evening with more xbox and just chillin..
that was our memorable oracles thanksgiving feast + ankie, agnes (i think that’s all..) and visiting wess w from the lumas..
thanks giving… giving thanks..
oracles dinner.. or FEAST! wow.. what a day..
instead of going to the hell - inspired STS, i bussed myself to church at 10 in the morning to help put with the church inner court clean up.. starting my weekend off early! dropped by at timmy's to get a bagel for breakfast.. then i browsed through the bible store next door from our church.. then i finally reached destination -- church. xD
so there i was.. moving tables.. chairs.. dusting.. with Katie and Ankie, later Agnes too. then we just sat in the inner court reserving seats and just listening to the singers sing. as i was weird enough to attempt doing my homework.. xD
lunch, we were didn’t need to provide lunch? hmm.. didn’t know that. well, then again, neither did Katie.. asking Edwin to bring her a lunch.. so Edwin brings this huge lunch.. n we all .. me, ankie, agnes, and katie all take some.. still we had leftovers.. -____-
later we started cooking dinner.. turkey.. well not really, the girls didn’t really help.. at the end it was just the guys.. xD so the ones that weren’t cooking.. we just hung out.. mich, agnes, and i went and took .. too many pics with sam’s new laptop. so random.. then we played xbox.. i sucked so much.. and throughout the whole time, i walked around with warren’s mini disk player..
then eventually we got to eattt.. yummy.. but i must say.. the stuffing wasn’t my fave.. but it was all cool. and wow.. must be hard cooking for like… 20 people.
after dinner we played uno.. reteat style.. man do i ever embarrass myself! i cut in… changing colour.. bluuuuue! .. not when i was suppose to go.. man.. was it ever sad. xP while we were playing was when we gave darren his pressie, a huge poster with a group pic of the oracles made with a million little pics of pics that were taken during games and practices..so purty.. ^^.. then we had dessert..
mango cake!!! from matt’s dad.. *yumm* ^^ so good. and there was ice cream and apple pie.. sugaaahh.. =DDD
after.. finishing up the evening with more xbox and just chillin..
that was our memorable oracles thanksgiving feast + ankie, agnes (i think that’s all..) and visiting wess w from the lumas..
thanks giving… giving thanks..
Tuesday, October 03, 2006
cross country
2nd cross country
yes i joined cross country.. because im just cool like that.. x]
what a day.. what a day… first woke up at 6am to get ready for my cross country meet. But then it was raining, thundering, lighting so much.. so no idea if it was still on.. went online to see if sally was going.. since she was the only reason why I’m going. She fully dragged me into it. so i went online.. she wasn't on, so i dug up her number and called her.. nope.. still going. so i got ready and headed out the door... still dark, pouring rain, i walk to school, by the time i got there, my hood was soaked, my pants were soaked and my shoes stored puddles. It was so uncomforable... >_> so i got to school and went to my locker. then went to the washroom to change. it was so sad.. i put my shorts on.. then my pants on top.. but my pants were wet and tight.. so it couldn't go all the way. so i left it unbuttoned.. xP then we loaded on to our COACH bus. =D i fell asleep almost instintly..
When we got there, we had to put up 3 tarps one huge one, one old one with holes, and a small blue one.. it was so sad, it took us so long to put it up, and it was extremely cheap compared to the other school's tents that had there school name, labelled 'cross country' but it was still so fun, Clifford brough .com monopoly! it was hilarious..
Then later i ran... so cold! and so muddy.. >< d=" and"><>< i wore them around.. it was so weird.. but hey.. if its a nice hat, ur not wearing it, so why wont i? x) and they dont mind.
then we cheered our runners on.. and ate... and wondered around.. it was funn...
what i missed at school.. it was spirit day! with spirit assembly.. i missed it! ='((( and it was my fave day.. day 1&3.. now i have to go to day 2/4 consecutively.. suckss.....oh well, still missed school to play monopoly .. =)
here are some picsss..
* clifford with all the pine needles in his hair.. lmao.. xD
<< this was when we were playing monopoly..
yes i joined cross country.. because im just cool like that.. x]
what a day.. what a day… first woke up at 6am to get ready for my cross country meet. But then it was raining, thundering, lighting so much.. so no idea if it was still on.. went online to see if sally was going.. since she was the only reason why I’m going. She fully dragged me into it. so i went online.. she wasn't on, so i dug up her number and called her.. nope.. still going. so i got ready and headed out the door... still dark, pouring rain, i walk to school, by the time i got there, my hood was soaked, my pants were soaked and my shoes stored puddles. It was so uncomforable... >_> so i got to school and went to my locker. then went to the washroom to change. it was so sad.. i put my shorts on.. then my pants on top.. but my pants were wet and tight.. so it couldn't go all the way. so i left it unbuttoned.. xP then we loaded on to our COACH bus. =D i fell asleep almost instintly..
When we got there, we had to put up 3 tarps one huge one, one old one with holes, and a small blue one.. it was so sad, it took us so long to put it up, and it was extremely cheap compared to the other school's tents that had there school name, labelled 'cross country' but it was still so fun, Clifford brough .com monopoly! it was hilarious..
Then later i ran... so cold! and so muddy.. >< d=" and"><>< i wore them around.. it was so weird.. but hey.. if its a nice hat, ur not wearing it, so why wont i? x) and they dont mind.
then we cheered our runners on.. and ate... and wondered around.. it was funn...
what i missed at school.. it was spirit day! with spirit assembly.. i missed it! ='((( and it was my fave day.. day 1&3.. now i have to go to day 2/4 consecutively.. suckss.....oh well, still missed school to play monopoly .. =)
here are some picsss..
* clifford with all the pine needles in his hair.. lmao.. xD
<< this was when we were playing monopoly..
so much on my mind
i have so much on my mind... constantly thinking.. but then.. its like, i'm not getting anywhere.
hopefully no one at school goes on this.. as in my blogspot.. its partly due to school that i'm so.. stressing with.. most of my life is there.. all my old friends that i had from last school year are all into drinking, if not smoking. I use to hang out with one group of ppl, now all they do is drink.. and my other friends.. we have so many difference, that its just that difficult to get close and be like, bff. its like.. i just lost everyone, and all i have left are people i barely see, and its just so difficult.
And its really doesn't help that when i get to church, its like the same, every1's grouped.. like.. bff with bff.. and mary isn't always there, like DF. but not only that.. now she's looking after the toddlers. as i am taking care of the children. its like.. there are no more escapes for me.. i can't get away from my problems... I had or still have a fear of loneliness.. i think it started in gr5. Its just that i'll get really uptight when there's no one around. And.. yea.. feels better to get some of it out.. than none.. ..
hopefully no one at school goes on this.. as in my blogspot.. its partly due to school that i'm so.. stressing with.. most of my life is there.. all my old friends that i had from last school year are all into drinking, if not smoking. I use to hang out with one group of ppl, now all they do is drink.. and my other friends.. we have so many difference, that its just that difficult to get close and be like, bff. its like.. i just lost everyone, and all i have left are people i barely see, and its just so difficult.
And its really doesn't help that when i get to church, its like the same, every1's grouped.. like.. bff with bff.. and mary isn't always there, like DF. but not only that.. now she's looking after the toddlers. as i am taking care of the children. its like.. there are no more escapes for me.. i can't get away from my problems... I had or still have a fear of loneliness.. i think it started in gr5. Its just that i'll get really uptight when there's no one around. And.. yea.. feels better to get some of it out.. than none.. ..
Monday, October 02, 2006
Fri, Sept 29
Girls night out.. more like in... but wte.. everytime i think of girls nite out, i always think of that night last year. march 31. girls nite out on my birthday, went downtown.. i dunno what kind of night it was.. mix of a happy one, and a sad one, but certainly memorable. But anyway.. so we watched a walk to remember, though i watched it numerous times, i still cryed.. like it wasn't only the movie, it was like... once i started to cry, i cryed because of the movie, but things not relating to the movie would pop up and i go bawl about that too.. it was different, never had that happen before.. like.. the movie reminded me of problems that i have and still didn't deal with.. so i cryed over that... ANyway.. we had ringolos..chips..wet popcorn..pizza.. then we went to the washroom for facial/masks.. xD but then i had to go... .. so that was the end of my night..
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