i don’t know how im suppose to feel..

what am I suppose to do?

without loosing the little that I have left…

could those memories not scare me to keep trying…

if I tried.. would I fail again?

would I fall so hard..again?

would my past come haunt me again?

how much would this ruin me getting through this..

what have I done to get all this,

what would of prevented this?

is there something that could prevent this?

is it my fault…

how many more chances will I have to give this?

how happy would I be after this..

and how long will it last..

when will the next time be, the next time actually i can smile with my heart...

why is it that whatever the situation, ignoring how much i was hurt, i will always be the one to give in first, i can't stand someone mad at me, and i can never stay mad at someone for long. whether you're right and im wrong, or vice versa, im always willing to do the apologizing. Ive been told, that, thats how you get hurt more easily... but what can i say... its just what i do...

i do it knowing that i'll get hurt. But i still do it anyway, to find that little joy

instead of grudge the whole way... i strive for peace, and a smile,

... even if it's only a little bit...

-Crystalkong