confushionn

im really confused...
of our relationship.
are we friends anymore?
if we are, what's the definition for our friendship..?
because i dont see it, feel it..
everything that happens feels awkward, or its done coldly, or no feeling at all..

this feels like a lie. or some kind of pity act... im not sure..

im not sure if im the only one that still has this thing burned into my head... and its next to all i think about..
you think we're ok..
how is it ok? we never solved it.. we waited it out..
and i guess you find it ok because in the situation, you didnt loose as much as i did.
you didnt get as hurt as i did..

if you want to leave it as is. its fine. but waiting it out isnt the best way i know.
but if we talk about it, is it going to end up being a fight?
i dont want to fight. not with you.

as people say.. --what's the deal?