all that culminatings + exams

drive me. crazy. and kills sleep,
crystal shall sleep no more XD - macbeth

may 26th, - physics potato cannon proposal due
may 27th - media articles due
may 28th - english macbeth speech presentation
may 29th - media magazine due
may 29th - english macbeth speech presentation
may 30th - physics potato cannon firing
june 2nd - fitness health video
june 3rd - chem MSG project
june 4th - parenting baby culminating assignment
june 4th - parenting exam
june 5th - physability
june 5th - chem picture + 100 word explanation
june 6th - fitness 5K run (in 30 mins) -delayed caused by rain ♥♥♥
june 11th - math exam @12:30
june 12th - english exam @12:30 - room 108
june 17th - chem exam @9:00 - room 206
june 18th - bio exam @12:30 - cafe
june 19th - physics exam @12:30 - cafe

truths. lies. and frienship dies.

just hope that the last out of the 3 doesnt come true...

recently has been so hard, just with my mom breaking out on me like i was some no one..
just trying to get by each day to the next til i hit weekend so i dont have school there too.
in hopes that i mite have a chance to relax a bit more..
my sisters, my sisters, are they really? i dunno. it feels like im just trying to make myself believe something just cause i know that id be easier that way.
when i look forward to friday, do i really look forward to seeing them? or just the fact that its going to be weekend?
i know and hear the things that you say about me, definitely doesnt reflect friendship, but you insist and fake that you are my friend after. why are you doing this?
and in a more specific time, did you notice that you're in my area? you're in my room, touching my stuff, and the moment i step out, you talk about me? thanks. thats some respect you've got.

really, if you dont like me or say something, say so; i dont get why you have to fake it.

what you did hurt me. word gets around. not trying to curse, but i hope you know how it feels, so that you wont do this to anyone else.

treat others the way you want to be treated.

to someone out there : )

ok, i can tell that you care for me.
and you want to know me,
but really, when i dont want to tell you something,
maybe its more personal, and i dont want to share?

its not like im excluding you alone,
im not telling anyone.
not yet at least.. : 3

i dont know, im not able to say it to your face.
so i guess this is how i get it out..
but i dont think you read my blog..

emotions of this past week

i had the potential.
i had the opportunity.
and instead of using it to my fullest advantage,
i gave it up,
only to spare someone else's feelings.
in return, have mine shattered and crushed.

i did the right thing didnt i?
arnt i suppose to feel good after i do it?
why am i regretting doing something good? or right?

im glad that you're happy.
--but id rather you be happy with me.

know what...
im glad you're happy.
im glad shes happy.
im glad you guys are happy.

im. glad. that. you're. happy.
and please dont make me repeat it.
just take it. and runnn with it.

its ok. leave. i'll handle this.

you made my week a m a z i n g. so thankyou.
and lets just leave it at that.

just remember this;
i will always be here for you to talk to, no matter what happens.
--im still not done my work. but how this is going to happen?
i dont have an answer.
just wait. and we'll see what happens.


--plan for loss, and hope for miracles.

Weak

Been tripping out of my mind.
Going crazy girl. baby I can't do anything without you
I've been thinking of way for you to come home.
Walk in and set play the whole drama girl.
Thinking that I was right but dead wrong.
Been trying to keep my head above the ground.
But realistically I'm probably gonna fall.
Don't let me go.
Because the truth is that I've been waiting for you.
Hoping, wishing, praying that you would call.

Now here we go at stage two.
Feels like more like a hundred and three.
And my emotions get the best of me.
I need my shawty back so I can breathe.
Cause I try to resist all the things I missed.
Oh baby I can't let you go.
The first time that we kissed, there was all that I wished.
So don't tell me to move on.

And now I know that when it's over strength is hard to find.
I'm so weak, only thoughts of you keep running through my mind.
And now I'm dying cause I thought my heart had finally found true love.
Love, pain is the same.
It's all the same.
My heart died playing these games.
And you know it's true, now I'm crying and dying cause I need you.