Roger that.

my blood father.
abandons wife and daughter.

i would love to know what he's thinking.
besides the excuses
besides the lies he hides behind
all for his pride and ego.



"take responsibility for your actions"

is what he always said to me
time to take your own advice.

best i ever had

sister
brother
either will be fine really..

but unfortunately i wasnt blessed with a sibling
so i guess i was blessed with independence
but everybody needs someone at some point..
so still. im at a loss.

so instead i consider my closest two friends my sisters.
i care for them as a sister.
i worry for them as a sister.
i love them as a sister.

its so hard to see them go off to uni
going so far, having all these experiences.
that i wont have.
going so far, and not seeing them as often anymore.
i might not even be their besties anymore.
i wont know whats going on anymore.
for 4 years.
a lot can happen in four years.

one of my sisters got a late acceptance into her first choice school
she got into the best for her course
i was so proud and happy for her.
and i was going to have at least a sister with me too!
but turns that she doesnt want to stay behind
she wanted to go,
and even though shes back
she doesnt want to be in the things we're in together..
like she doesnt want to spend even the least possible time with me..

my other sister, shes going to the loo! im so glad for her.
and if only i went there too, then we could of roomed together!
wouldnt that be simply perfect?
but thats not so, hope you have fun, stay safe!
and please please please stay in touch,
cause im going to miss you a lot.


whether you know it or not jenn&hailey
i love you two like sisters and like family
have a wonderful fantastic four years.
please stay safe
im missing you already

Family Matters

was the theme for retreat


'communication is key'
what if your family refuses to communicate? doesnt want to. will not do it. refuses to talk to each other. doesnt trust each other? doesnt care bout what each other has to say?

'your friends may come and go but not your family'
a family member just left. admitted to not caring. not loving the family anymore. and refuses to return home. my friends are as close to family as it can get to me. im an only child. so i dont have a lot to hold on to other than my parents. friends are my sisters to me. and it scares me so much when people tell me that friends come and go.



& i forget the rest.