wish i can do it for you

i dont want to help anymore.
im doing it for him.
not for you.
though i wish i can do it for you.
just cause i s h o u l d --
but not that i want to.

seeing that you dont appreciate it.
appreciat me.
i can see through the likes...
dont lie.
dont act.

ive had enough,
your presence stresses me
and i cant even for a smile on for you without really struggling.

must i say that this is not the definition of friendship.

bit of w i s d o m for you

from the wise old Bible : )

James 1:2-4 (New International Version)

Trials and Temptations

2Consider it pure joy, my brothers, whenever you face trials of many kinds, 3because you know that the testing of your faith develops perseverance. 4Perseverance must finish its work so that you may be mature and complete, not lacking anything.

Romans 8:18 (New International Version)

Future Glory

18I consider that our present sufferings are not worth comparing with the glory that will be revealed in us.

Philippians 4:6-7 (New International Version)

6Do not be anxious about anything, but in everything, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your requests to God. 7And the peace of God, which transcends all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus.

l o s s

i hate loosing people in my life.
and im aware of the strength of the word hate
but i know that they arent always meant to stay.
wasting time on people who dont seem to appreciate it or bother returning the favor--
i heard once.
and i admit, i kinda agree...
that it isnt about how long ive known the person. but how long and much they are there for me.
that really matters.
how can i deny whats true?
why do i fight for all these friendships because its 'a waste to loose such a long friendship'

but can my stubborn heart let go? i feel so bad letting go
it is what i should really be doing? i try to help out here and there, but i can see its not appreciated. not from her.
i dont really.. mind going through all this, if its worth it.
--but is it?

its late. dads going to kill me if i dont sleep now.

s m : ) e

the reasons for the upward curve spread upon my face

so widely i smile because of you
seeing you.
the thought of you.
simply you.

please keep a smile upon your own sweet face
as it not only makes me smile widely
but lightens my heart to see you happy.
whatever it is you feel, i feel the same
share the your joy and pain, and ill return the favor

youre in heart
implanted there deeply, slowing growing together
how passionately you stand by my side no matter what it is im standing for--

never felt nothing in the world like this before
now im missing you
apart time slows
feeling as if it had come to a dead stop
dragging to rather painful extents

as for the moments we spend together,
truely does time learn to fly

brush those frustrations off your shoulders and s m : ) e
wait for me, so ill take a share of the troubles away//


imu♥

music box

im the box
youre the music within

youve simply become the music in my heart
opened, the box sings, with a ballerina spinning with a joyous heart.
music, you've lightened the isolated ballerina's life that inhabited a silent still box
i, a ballerina's life, now shines full spectrum.

im the box
youre the music within


- -- --- ---- ----- ----- ------ -------- --------- ---------- -----------
my favorite song
my fairytale
my fantasy dream

your loves got me weak in the knees
just cant see me without you
without you in my life..
with this i plead that you'd stay;

never in this world have felt this way
how its just a little bit more then i can stand when youre away
and lastly the three words ill save for spoken words//

baby but remember this, --I will wait for you
no matter what it is you have to do..
im here to support you, here to encourage you
cause I don't know what else i can do...

choose wisely. i shouldnt be a reason that alters the results of your decision--



i♥u