within around 5 months, may 25th to oct 5th, that my mom went away to support her sister, my aunt, while she suffered through cancer...
--i've never been away from my mom for so long... never.
and it hurt me so much, when she left, especially while i was on a trip, and i didnt know.
all i got when i got home was a note that she left, telling me that she was gone. and she didnt even know for how long..
for 5 months i had to learn the things she taught me previously that i barely ever used, like cooking, laundry, or just the mother job altogether.
i was forced to learn how to be independent, and to do almost everything myself, from getting up in the morning without someone pulling me out of bed, meals, to just getting somewhere.
i didnt have to take all the lecturing that she always had for me.
i had less restrictions, i just didnt have as many arguments as my mom would be the one i had most arguments with since i saw her the most.
now that shes back, im so glad that i dont have to do all the chores anymore, and i have my mother back..
but i think i changed a lot over this summer, for the good and for the bad...
i learned to be independent, i dont need as much assistance as i did before. im more mature, i've grown closer to God.
but im not as patient anymore, i use to always had to be, for my mom, just to get along, but now its like i cant take all those lectures, they're hours long, and its almost like i lost the ability or patience to talk to her like human beings.
i learned to be on my own, and do everything myself without supervision, and now its like i have to be monitored, like i cant be trusted to do anything. it feels insulting almost, its frustrating, im telling her that i can do it, but she doesnt hear me.
im really glad about summer07, i learned so much, and did so many things that i just wasnt really allowed, restricted from, i've experienced good and bad, and learned to deal with them.
but now its like my privileges have been taken away and i cant really get along with my mom as well as i use to.
[if its not one thing after another, or just everything coming all at once.. ]
you only live life once, so make the best of it.
2 comments:
Glad to hear your mother is back. It's true that you've grown so much throughout this past summer, I've seen it. God gave you this chance to grow and you took it. You grew tremendously and it shows.
I understand that you feel hurt that she didn't tell you when she left but instead disapproving, understand that she too was scared, afraid and terrified that she wouldn't be able to see your aunt again.
Ask God to give you the patience that you need because although she doesn't mean to hurt you, she surely has a lot going through her mind.
Pray and just thank God that your mother has com back safely and ask him for his guidence. Be supportive of your mother and let her know that you're there for her if she needs to talk.
'Children obey your parents in the Lord, for this is right...' -Ephesians 6:1
yo gud to hear ur mom is back...it's a weird coincidence we had a bible study on parenting too =S
but n e wayz.rmember wht we discussed in our BS group?.even though parents do weird things that end up hurting us..we still SHUD obey them..b/c This pleases God.
whenever i feel p'd off at my parents ..i just rmember that God would want me to obey them regardless of how mad they make me..or how sad they make me..
As long as we remain faithful to our parents through all the messy things they give us...it is ultimately our holy parent (God) that will see this..and he will be pleased.
-Jonthan Tene....(too lazy to type my whole last name)
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