l o s s

i hate loosing people in my life.
and im aware of the strength of the word hate
but i know that they arent always meant to stay.
wasting time on people who dont seem to appreciate it or bother returning the favor--
i heard once.
and i admit, i kinda agree...
that it isnt about how long ive known the person. but how long and much they are there for me.
that really matters.
how can i deny whats true?
why do i fight for all these friendships because its 'a waste to loose such a long friendship'

but can my stubborn heart let go? i feel so bad letting go
it is what i should really be doing? i try to help out here and there, but i can see its not appreciated. not from her.
i dont really.. mind going through all this, if its worth it.
--but is it?

its late. dads going to kill me if i dont sleep now.