i knew this can't go on for long... i am at this very momentt.. i am about to explode in tears.. never mind.. i already am.. i cannot take my mom.. and the problems that fill my mind.. that only increases by every second . moment . thought . NEVERMIND. the more i think.. the more i am about to scream.. and and.. i dunno. i dont.. i have no idea what i'm suppose to do..
but i am so close in fully walking out the door and just.. running awayy.. i hate this place.. its almost 90% of the reason.. or the place where i feel the most.. unsafe?
love how my mom loves to pick at my sensitive subjects.. sensitive now.. cuz that's where all my problems lay.. yet she loves to.. and not positively.. i dont know how i'm suppose to .. to.. take in what she's saying and not respond to it.. she makes it up too.. and its only normal to reply and say that isn't true.. but when i do.. she thinks i'm --- lost of thought.. i just blew it for a sec.. yea.. so she say that i skip.. i dont skip.. and then she goes on.. and on.. for hours at end... its sorta hard to just let her talk.. cuz it isn't talking.. its yelling.. i dunno.. i can't let it pass.. cuz i'll come back.. since she loves repeating.. i listen.. and i explode.
yea.. cant blog anymore.. or cuz i can't type as i scream..
i'm going to loose it.. loose it bad.
[lost thought]
[lost thought]
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