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i happy this past week or so.. first.. i was with my etcbc family.. my favorite family..i was with the tgirls that i grew up with.. but its not that that made if special, its not like I haven’t done it before.. but at winter retreat.. i did something different.. i didn’t only hang out with the tgirls so much.. i went away from default..

it all happened when we got into an argument.. or someone was arguing as others just got unhappy and moved away.. im normally only with one group of people.. whether im happy with them or not..

but i decided to fully go to another group of people, people that i must say that i don’t know all that well.. and we talked… like we’ve known each other as well as each of the tgirls knew each other.. i think it was the night card games and the all nighter convos that i actually treasure.. i got to talk about something without worrying that im going to be judged.. some of you that may read this and were also present at the 2 nights might not even think the same.. but for me, i really haven’t gotten away from the original circle in a long time.. and it is really nice just to be out there, with other people enjoying myself and not get hurt..

i was disappointed today.. i was just trying to somewhat continue what was started there [winter retreat].. and it was ok.. i was accepted.. and my old group would come up to me and say that ive ‘ditched’ them or along those lines.. i don’t understand.. i have never flown from the nest.. and the moment i do.. i get lectured.. am i only allowed to stay in the nest? even if i don’t feel safe in it? when i can leave the nest for a bit to see the rest of the world..

i thought my sisters would be happy for me.. that i did something that i sorta wanted to for a long time.. and be happy with me.. but didn’t happen so much like that.. i was almost disowned for what im glad about…

and yepp.. my writing is written kinda odd.. but its what my head is sorta thinking about.. and at this point.. the best i can put in into words.. im not so good at putting words in for my feelings... i tried tho.. =]