but why is it that whenever there's something that i am happily looking towards, its ruined by a problem, or makes me not look forward to it anymore.
discourages hopes
break dreams
-makes me look forward to anything. leaving life as dull and negative as ever.

where's a hug when you need it most. someone to accompany when you need it most.
i just want to go home. but i dont even know where home is...