response.

please read this qoute carefully, it took some time for me to just retrieve it, like an hour.., it has little to do with what i have to blog about, but i think its something that everyone should think about...

It is one of the severest tests of friendship to tell your friend his faults. So to love a man that you cannot bear to see a stain upon him, and to speak painful truth through loving words, that is friendship. - Henry Ward Beecher

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first of all, to the persons blog or post, yet to be posted..
i just thought i should tell you, im really impressed? proud? look up to you to be able to tell how you really really feel like that.

and also, "[missing/unknown] 'pieces of information' about you" i think that if person thinks of you as close friends with you, its necessary to show all of you and not hide things from them. Hiding things from a friend is like lying to me, lying about the truth, and i do mean full truth.

also, i personally dont think that anyone, or just me, deserves or have the right to be angry at anyone, they're my friend and i dont think i should be mad or angry at her for trying to fix things, and i do owe an apology, for being difficult and not really co-operative. you were trying to fix things and i pulled back, i still think of you as a friend, so i should trust you, but i didnt and pulled back.. and thats just not a quality of a friend. and i apologize for it. --im sorry that i made things difficult for you.

i didnt get over anything for her, dont think of it as a favor, to me its almost like essential, because i know, or thought that it would help this situation, and thats all i wanted, for the problem to just disintegrate..

-- i can say that this has scared me, but i'll wear it to not get back to you, but to show to others, not to bring you down, but to help or prepare others that may go through this.

To wait for God to handle this, its not to give up ourselves, its like making a human pyramid. if someone is falling, you call out for help, you dont just relax til help comes, but you hold on and try as help comes..

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its true that i dont believe this is over, it wasnt talked about
and the out waiting of the problem, never really lasts, i'll be good for now, its only temporary, and i'll come back, and its possible to come back even worst, personally, i dont think i can handle that, so i do suggest that doesnt happen. Sorry if you think im being selfish and thinking that things have to be done because i dont think i can handle it, but i think it hurts everyone, and i dont think anyone wants it. and for all the friends i have that are concerned and are pulling me out of my emotional pit, thankyou i really dont think that i could be where i am right now emotionally. still up and not hiding from the world in a hole or whatever.. so thankyou.

i know a few of you are confused. im going to state them. some repeated before but i dont care, i want you to know, and to untangle your tied up strings
-its not about the guy. i dont care
-im not mad
-im still her friend

i know that i dont really let friends get too involved.. i think its a waste of their time no matter what they say or think.. but this time.. i think i need it..
this is a balancing act.. we keep each other up and get through together.. im up for it, now.. who's going to join this? im telling you now that its not going to be easy, its going to be like boot camp, its a challenge.