enough of this bull.

[beware: rantTEAiiish + anGARRiee post]


picked up and dropped off.
like an item from a thrift store,
picked up with a small price, when needed i come in handy, and thrown in those boxes at the back of a parking lot when im not.

i want to feel like im cared about and not just someone thats to be unacknowledged only when im needed.
if that cant be delivered, i'd rather you fully leave me out all together.

do not tell me that you're sorry and that you're going to stop and change. i believed you cause i believed and thought you were my friend. but i guess its obvious that i believed in the wrong person, and thought just wrong.
you would go back and stab my in the back once more before you walk off.

why do i always step in that same puddle time after time? "trust me. trust me, you can trust me" you say over and over. but you lie and disappoint me once too many times now. i wonder if you only say that so that you can find out what would hurt me most.

this is ridiculous how obnoxious and rude this is.

dont tell me that you feel the same, and understand when people spread rumors or use what you tell them against them and only to hurt them. cause you do it. i think i see you do it a lot more than those other people you say.

why do i always try to be nice, even in the midst of you backstabbing me? why am i defending you even then? is it not obvious enough?

i'll forgive, but i dont forget things so soon, but you keep it coming back like those unwanted. annoying pop ups on the computer. so it bottles itself. and really i think its about to blow, and i suggest you run when that happens. get out of my way when that happens. dont let me find out anything else that you do when that happens.

yet you question why i dont talk to you or if im mad at you. well im glad you can sense it.
if i grow quiet on you, or walk from you. it means that im holding back hitting you. ok? : )


[incomplete rant, but i've taken out enough to be able to concentrate in my reading..]