ode to "nvm, w/e"

the feeling in my chest; i just cant explain -
when someone you care for, just causes you pain..
its almost like the more i love thee
the less it takes for you hurt me..
the little things you simply dont want to tell -
i feel. and always will it dwell
in my mind and heart will it remain,
growing with worry and concern; driving me insane.
Feeling like im unworthy to know,
waiting for your reply that seems like ages ago.
perhaps because its in text and i cant tell...
but after reading and reading again, i foretell
thats everything isnt just "fine" but you just wont tell.
what you dont know is that it drives me worried and scared as hell...
i pray that this will stop, habits like this -
because i can not and will not dismiss.
but please, will it dive down to the endless abyss.
as there it will stay as i live here in our sweet kiss.
also where im truely alive am i in your kiss;
praying i dont wake up only finding myself in a reminisce.

through all this, and even a black eye and a war cry.
i can and will never even think of goodbye.

the feeling in my chest; i just cant explain -
when someone you care for, just causes you pain..